Is this the way to live? ☺ is it??

You see the thing about anxiety is that it completely shields your eyes from the things that are everything to you. It convinces you that something is wrong and that people who mean the world to you don’t care about you anymore when even though 3 days ago you guys couldn’t have been better. It tricks you’re brain into having a warped view on your life and allows toxic fumes to ruin the picture. It makes you feel like everything you do and everything you are is fucking wrong. It allows you to think that you’re fucking up your relationship and whispers that poisonous thought “one day, this is all going to mess up because of YOU”. You may know all of this is a LIE, but still, there’s that glimmer of venerability inside of you that starts to wonder if this is actually true. Anxiety isn’t just ‘sleeping it off’ anymore because you feel the same way in the morning; and you know what? It’s fucking shit. Fuck this. You need to know you are the strong one here, do you hear me? YOU are doing it right, people, your girlfriend still loves you- MORE THAN YOU THINK. They love you. It pains them to see you like this. YOU are becoming stronger everyday but you can’t see that because of the poison in your veins. The brain is very very clever. It can turn your happiness into ash on the floor. Your anxiety is a bully. It needs to die. It needs to die so you can start to become alive again. 
The fact you have survived today, shows you are already killing it.”